I'm angry at EVERYTHING!!!!
first, at myself. I still don't know what to do with my ex.. I still love him but I'm not sure if I want him back (long story.. will pm if you want to
I do stupid things (eg kissing other people, not studying)
I'm ill. well I've got a massive headache (and I hate my teacher, he had an maths excercise today, and the sheet (powerpoint) headed 'headache' AS IF I DIDN'T HAVE ONE ALREADY) I'm freezing, I'm boiling, my throat feels like someone stabbed 15 knifes in it (which move when I cough; which I do a lot), my nose is running, I can't walk 2 stairs without having to catch my breath for 5 minutes, along with my heart pounding heavily and at least twice as fast as normally
second of all.. I hate the insurance company for my phone. I went to the store where I bought the phone on monday, then they told me I had to print my 'complaint' (huh? translating via wikipedia doesn't always make much sense; I meant that when something is stolen you go to the police and you fill out some forms and then they'll give you this 'complaint' thingy that you can give to the insurance n stuff.)
anyways. that guy made a copy of my passport, and gave me a new sim, blocked my old one.. he told me if I handed over my complaint form I could get a new phone instantly. next day, I returned. complaint form printed. blablabla conclusion of the whole story was, that I hadn't blocked my sim in 24 hours (which I wasn't capable of, since I was in amsterdam for the next day and didn't have their number. yeah I probs stored it in my phone but that one was STOLEN remember. gaahhh) and I would get sent a letter in 3 days whether it was accepted or not. ok, biked back to uni, cos I still had to go to college. then I got a phone call, 'yeah we forgot to copy your passport. can you come back to make a copy?' 'uhh that was done yesterday. by some other dude' 'oh I'll see if I can find it.. nope can't find it! so can you come back today?' '*sigh* suuuure...'
and today I got the letter from the insurance company, and ofcourse, they rejected my thingy. uh. youknow.
third, it's raining/snowing/freezing. which isn't really good for my cold/illness/whatever
fourth, I'm going to rise against tomorrow! yaaaay finally, can't wait to see em again.. BUT since I'm ill-ish, I'll probably not be able to go crazy n stuff, moshing, which I love.. normally I would go and stand on something high, like a staircase (which they have at that venue) to make some photo's/video's. BUT my cam got stolen. and I'm not gonna buy a new one before the gig cos I'm afraid I might lose it again/it might get stolen again.
that's about it. I still hate myself, nothing is going as I planned it.. and I hate relationships. and not being in them. and being in them. aaaaaaaaahhhhh