i actually found/discovered them, through ronan keatring and radio creme brulee (explained in welcome topic) about 2 months ago at a time when things weren't going to great, i wasn't feeling to good either (hadn't been feeling good for quite a long time). Things happened in my past, lost of bullying for years, that i just couldn't seem to shake of. Like it was haunting me. Whatever i did, i've never felt fully accepted for who i am. Never felt comfortable. Can't really explain.. I've been listening to POTF almost every day since (and other music still too, depends on the mood and whether i'm behind my pc or not
I can't say it's been the cure for everything messed up, of course not. Some things i just cannot change myself , cause in fact they're not my problems to start with. I can help but i can't solve. I can judge but that won't allow me to help, will only get my mind messed up... but i can not agree with something and still (offer) help....
So i'm starting to accept that (i can not agree, that's ok, but still offer help) , move on. For myself: I walk straighter. Start to dress a bit different (more colourfull and not only too wide clothes while i DO have a good figure/weight now, even if i don't see it (when i look down i still see loads of euhm fat. it's programmed in my mind i guess), mirror, husband and scales tell me!) Don't blush and feel awkward&stupid all the time, i used to be angry a lot with myself when i felt i had said something 'stupid' in whatever situation (in the supermarket/shops, on the phone, at family gatherings...). I still do at times. But not as long anymore. I can get past it more easily now. It's not an easy process, but i think music in general, and POTF especially to give me that last 'push' in the right direction i needed, helped more then the cousellor did
Though it was great to read (we only email, could not get myself to go by and actually TALK, that's one step too far, stlil) of her that i'm starting to 'find the balance within myself' and that i should be proud of finding that balance within me even in complicated situations. That i don't have a 'narrow mind' and i should cherish that part of me... because THAT is who i am. Not that angry person, blaming everyone including herself.. being stuck in something i didn't even know to describe myself. Except for 'teenage years'. Like i was finally going through the 'puberty' i sort of missed as a teenager..
So, yes i do. But not only at those occasions, also when i'm happy. Depends on the mood wich songs i listen more though!
(ror example: right now it's clevermind, sleep, temple of thought and dreaming wide awake, it's been fragile, changes and war before