Oh please, stop talking like you'd knew everything about everyone.

Fair enough lol, I suppose I don't want out then since I can't bring myself to risk it and live. But as said, don't worry, no more moping about here. Let's just all accept it and let someone with a real reason to be sad to write something, okay?

I never said I knew everything. I just know what it's like to be so far down that death looks good. It's something that I've fought with for decades, so yeah, I do know a little something about that, and what it's like to fight with it every day. I know what it's like when it feels like work to just smile. I know what it's like to be so tired of fighting that I don't want to fight.
But...
I know now that it doesn't have to be that way. Not long ago I decided that when that darkness tried to overtake me, that I would not pay attention to it. I would not look at it. Instead of thinking about it, I chose to think of something else. I chose to think of happiness and joy, instead of concentrating on fighting being sad and miserable. And the moment I started doing that, the darkness went away by itself. In fact, it downright died where it stood. That's why it's not so hard to do. Just change the way you think. It helped me so much, and I know it will help others, too. What's wrong with wanting others to be full of ridiculous joy?

Nothing wrong with that, but doing it in a bit less hostile way would probably help, lol at least with me. Had you written this message first and only then the others.....Well

I know it helps. I do it when I can, but as said, when I'm tired from lack of sleep and an overdose of stress I can't really think. Is it really so wrong that at those moments I just want to let it out?

Not everyone experienced that the same way you did. There's nothing wrong in wanting other to be happy but since when you are so sure that your advices can cause that?

Not at all...if it works. The thing is when you repeat it over and over and over...it gets a little old. Whatever you're doing doesn't seem to be working, does it? Time to change it, wouldn't you say? Sorry if you're not used to someone telling it like it is. It wasn't meant to be hostile, it was meant to make you pay attention, and it did the job. I just want you to know that even though I may not show as much sympathy, I do still care just as much and just the same as anyone. It's just that I've seen and participated in this same song-and-dance routine for so long. I know (and have done) many of the cheats, heard (and said) many excuses, etc. It's all nothing, a waste of time and energy. I know that now, and I hope you can know that, too, if you wish. Please hang in there.

Since when are you so sure they won't? Have you ever tried?

I love ping-pong games! Let's play some more!

Oh I'm not going anywhere, death is not for me The repetition....Well nothing else really gets to me hard enough for me to feel a need to say something about it. It's not like I'm here every day moping you know This is just a hard time for me, lol a lot of work and no positive result from it so far.

Okay, DoH, I understand. I hope you know that I've got your back. I'm sure many others here do, too. I just want you to see there is, there really is another way with this. The light (or the end) is there, if you'd only stop hanging your head and look up.
In fact, don't just hang in there. Climb back up. You can do it, I fully believe you can.

Ah, but what would make me believe in it, that's the question Well, I do know what would, but the 'but' that that line craves so much would be complaining, and we wouldn't want to piss off anyone else too now would we? Besides, sleep is a good thing to get every now and then.

When there is rock concert in my country but I am not able to attain it...thats what I hate...

Just..that everybody surrounding me seems to be dying.. Young people too..
It all started when an acquantaince of someone i know died in a car accident, then it came closer with the grandmum of a friend, then it came closer with the best friend of a friend of mine who was only 17 years old who died in a car accident on a street i use to cross every day...
Afterwards my own grandad turned out to have a cancer..He will die in a few months or even weeks.. And then I heard that the father from someone from my class died..And then today I heard that the mother of a friend of mine died..And she was living alone with her mother, because her brother was already studying, and her parents were divorced..So don't know what she's going to do now...Really nobody deserves that but she doesn't at all, really it's so sad for her

esmee your tying events together when they aren't of the same ribbon, leave the silk to billow as it may, its a strange world death comes with an iron fist an disappears into the flutter of butterfly wings in moments. Dont make so much of things that may seem so terrible, though death has found many around you it doesn't mean that it wont leave its grace behind for a long time.

I'm sad because recently theres been a lot of press coverage of my area due to a large cluster of apparent suicides. Theres been 17 in 13 months and theyre all below 27 years of age. The press and media attention has been absolutely horrendous, calling the place 'death town' when its actually a very successful little town.
Also theres been no bloody respect for the peopl who did kill themselves. All the newspapers have either decided that its an internet cult and they only did it so they could have a memorial website for them (as if saying these young people are stupid enough not to realise they wont be around to enjoy it). Also, the papers have no trouble in announcing which ones were on drugs, which ones were particularly promiscuous or which ones were juvinile delinquents, fuck respect for the dead!
Also these bloody people dont have the common sence to realise that increase media attention and the glamourising of something like suicide is going to lead to increased cases. If one more person dies soon (number 18) itll be an international issue, then the suicide rate around Britain will probably skyrocket!!

the whole thing just makes my blood boil!

Oh no ree, I hope they get to the bottom of this soon!
Media can be such a pain in the a$$ sometimes, and they never have respect for anyone,living or dead!

Ending my relationship

Oh no!!! thats always so hard to do...I need to do the same, I am not in love, I don't really even like the guy..but I don't know how to tell hi goodbye....good luck on it!

@Ree

I cant stand stuff like that, how a place no matter how incredible can be ruined by a peculiar strain of deaths. Nevermind how the family and close friends must feel about those close to them not only being driven to suicide for one reason or another but being exploited and ranted about by the media in areas NOBODY has the right to know, makes my blood boil purple b'y.

@The_Absolution and ~*Cyanide Sun*~

That there is some bloody business, good luck with letting them off easy...

Thanks Ryan, I need all the luck I can get![/quote]

I've been sick for about a week now and it sucks x.X I have a really bad cold and I'm coughing like it's nobody's business. And I've missed so much school because I've been throwing up and coughing up blood. I'm going to the hospital today to see why I'm so screwed up

I wish you luck, hopefully theres nothing too terrible going on

I'm missing one teddy

Might have the blood disease, theres a REALLY good chance of it, hoping the final tests will expel that.... But theres barely a chance Gonna have to wait a LONG time for surgery and I wanted it OVER AND DONE WITH, if there truly is a god he loves to tease me...

Oh god, thats aweful!!! if you do have it is there anything they can do for you to ease any symptoms before your surgery?

yup a medicine that i cant pronounce

what blood disease is it axactly? Are the symptoms really bad?

I'm the missing teddy bear

well it makes my blood harder to clot after extensive bleeding... such as surgery... but otherwise its harmless, unless you got it really bad which is ruled out for me, though my cousins have it real bad... nosebleeds almost daily.

But if I had it and wasn't medicated and had surgery there'd be a BIG chance of death.. or something serious so... yeah

Ree, I've read about that in the newspapers, I think I've heard the story. It made me feel very helpless and sad when I read it. Just try to remember that suicides are deaths that people themselves have chosen, and it doesn't have to mean that they're "destined" to do it. There are many meaningless deaths out there, and they're the very worst when they strike people around us. Still, hopefully, those who took their lives are in a better place now, and if you don't believe in that kind of stuff, then, well, at least they don't suffer anymore. It's over for their part. The hard thing is to cope for those who are left behind, loved ones, family, and everyone around.

I can only hope this does not bring you too far down. It's natural to mourn, but not to go as far as follow their actions. This thing isn't like wearing Levi jeans cause everyone else does.

Try to concentrate on what's good in your life, and remember that you view your town as a successful one, not one full of death. It will live the way you view it and the way you love it. The media can never cover the whole truth, and soon people around that have only read about your town, will forget about its reputation. You who live there make it what it is. Not the ones who die there.

Hope you'll cope. *hugs ree*

Thanks beccali, everyone else its nice to know that the media hasnt brainwashed everyone yet. Things have been quiet around here for a bit so hopefully there wont be anymore for a while.



I think i've heard of it, is it haemophilia? it sounded pretty aweful i hope theres more they can do for you