Well I'm not that depressed anymore, didn't say I was. I was talking about the feeling I do have when I am depressed and feel lonely because I don't know how to trust the people who love me. So sorry for my need to tell someone how bad I sometimes feel.
I do fight back, quite a lot, but there are times when I don't get a break from it. And sorry for being weak, but I just can't fight it non stop. We can't all be like you.
lol I'm not actually angry at all. What I have written so far probably sounds like it, and if it was any other day I could be, but not today. I haven't been this disappointed with my inability to just push through without rest, my inability to keep going just because I know I have to, for a while. So lash out, I won't mind.
If I could learn how to trust people again it would probably be easier. But I don't trust, so the bad days I have to go through alone. Sorry that I can't be stronger, but as hard as it may be for you to understand, I really can't.
But you're right, it is not my place to complain. Sorry for that, won't happen again
I wasn't lashing out. I was telling you to wake up. I want you to get help. I am sick and tired of you moping about here, expecting gobs of sympathy. Where exactly have you said you were fighting back? Please show me where, if I'm wrong. Haven't you, in fact, kept repeating the same old crap that you can't
fight back? That's the bull I'm calling you on, because you can. You just won't.
It's not as hard as you make it out to be. You seem to want it to be this huge insurmountable obstacle, because then your excuses would be justified. Guess what? It's not. It's not, but I'll bet you already know that.
You are largely responsible for what you feel, regardless of your circumstances. Unless someone has a gun to your head, you can choose to feel happy or not. Depressed, or not. And if you don't want out of it, fine, that's your right. But if you do, get on with it! It is possible! No more moping about how life sucks! So what if it does? Do something about it instead of mope! Moping gets you nothing and nowhere!
Be silly! Be crazy! Don't be afraid to be absolutely ridiculous in front of people! If it makes you laugh, so much the better! Live, goddamn it! Just live!